We plan for so many things everyday and seldom they fit into god’s plan. My life has been an apt example of Butterfly Effect, even a small incident changes it drastically.
The most recent example of the same being this admission season, about a month back I was quite confident of making it to at least one college and 2 weeks later I finally geared up and lifted myself from a mourning period and paid the fees for yet another season of mocks and tests. But an update on MDI’s website switched me again to that hopeful mode and no matter how hard I try its really difficult for me to switch off these irritating mode changes, specially when I know that I will again have to go through that mourning period to get back to that mock mode.
I wish I had a button of rewind in life so that I could fix everythin, so that I could make everythin perfect startin from my kindergarten. I would like to fix the moment when I fell off the bicycle for the first time, when I failed in an exam for the first time, when I got rejected for the first time, when I lost someone I loved and first time of so many things. But I wonder even if I get to do it will I be able to live without any failure? I cannot imagine my life without all these memories. These are the moments that define who am I today.
So as Shakespeare puts it “What’s done can’t be undone”, I think its better for me try to work on my present rather than tryin to fix the past.
